So, it's this time of year once again. This year just seemed to fly by.
Okay, so recap of what happened in my life in 2018. This is mostly for myself, but everybody is free to read this!
This year was kinda.. special. Lots of ups and downs, things seem to be going better and better, but at the same time my mental health has seen better days. Some of the stuff that's happened this year, I have started getting prober help and have these past 6 months been meeting up with a psychologist at a regular basis. Idk how much I've gotten from it so far, but one thing is for sure, I've gotten better at expressing my emotions, and I've gotten better at explaining what's going on in my head. I've also kinda gotten more confident with myself this past year??
Earlier this year I started dealing with some suicidal thoughts again, after years of them being gone, but I think that's mostly gone now? I finally feel like I have a goal to work towards, and my future doesn't seem completely hopeless anymore.
Still together with Ryu (
Sudden-Paws) and she has really been there a lot for me this year, and tbh she really helped me get through it. Can't wait for another year with her by my side <3
School is stressful as hell, but the teachers are really helping me, and I'm still really grateful I get to go to this school.
Art-wise I (once again) decided to throw everything I knew into a bit and go for a new artstyle this year. During spring-time this year, I really started disliking my art, and even more I disliked doing it, but I now feel a lot better about my art, and I def don't regret starting to paint! I also lost my first drawing tablet this year, may it rest in peace, and am currently waiting for my new one to arrive! (First one with a screen, whoo!)
Overall there is a lot I look forward to in the new year! I will be getting a new tablet in january (hopefully, haha), graduate in summer, and hopefully start working towards becoming a concept artist! I'll most likely also be tested next year, to see if I have a diagnose (And if so I'll be able to work towards overall better mental health!) and hopefully I'll get to meet my lovely GF irl in this upcoming year!
Anyhow, I hope you all have a great New Year, and see ya all in 2019 <3
I love you all and thank you for sticking with me through this year!
Happy New Year <3